sometimes...

Be. That's what this blog is about. Simply being who I am and who we are as a family. Being real and being transparent. Sharing this journey of life.


Sometimes being real and being transparent opens yourself up to being hurt.

Sometimes being hurt makes it hard for me to be joyful. I confess that it is my natural tendency to withdraw when I am hurting. Especially from the one or ones who caused the hurt.

Sometimes that is good. Sometimes I just need to process what happened.

Sometimes it is not so good. Sometimes it just causes bitterness.

Bitterness is not welcome in my heart. It cannot co-exist with Jesus.



Jesus tells us to love those who persecute us. To pray for them. To forgive them even when they are not repentant or don't think they did any wrong. I confess that it's a real struggle for me sometimes. It can be real hard to love back when love is/was not shown.

When my conscience is clear, it doesn't matter what anyone may say about me or to me. That doesn't mean it doesn't hurt though. Sometimes the hurt comes to you indirectly. When one you love is hurt, that hurt affects you as well.


I am in process. I am a process. Sometimes it's two steps forward and one step back. Sometimes I am amazed at how far Jesus has brought me in the process. Sometimes I am grieved at how much I've resisted the process. The process of being transformed into His likeness.



Sometimes we are hurt by those who love us. Sometimes we hurt the ones we love the most. When this happens, it causes a breech in trust. It can cause walls to form in the relationship.

Then, it is a process to rebuild the relationship that was there before the hurt. Sometimes this can take a very long time.

Sometimes after the healing has taken place and the trust regained, hurt happens again.



My Savior and Lord, Jesus, felt every hurt I will ever feel. He understands. He was rejected by many...some of them were family members. He was betrayed by one of His close friends. If I run to Him when I am hurting, He is waiting and ready to heal. It isn't always an instant healing. Sometimes it is.

But He is all about relationships.

Especially the relationship between He and His bride.



Sometimes, many times, I am just so ready to leave the hurts behind and enjoy being in His presence for eternity.

Sometimes, in the midst of the hurt, I can still enjoy His presence. Even though I can't see or feel Him, I know He is with me.


After all, His love and acceptance and approval is all the love, acceptance and approval I really need. No one can fill His place. His love is unconditional. It is everlasting.

I live to please Him alone. No one else, just Him.

And no, I don't always please Him. But I try. That is the desire of my heart.


Sometimes I think He allows hurt in our lives just to drive us into His arms.

And that is the best place to be when we hurt.


Sometimes just being transparent in the midst of hurting can be healing.


Rom 8:31-39

What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?
He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things?
Who shall bring any charge against God's elect? It is God who justifies.
Who is to condemn? Christ Jesus is the one who died--more than that, who was raised--who is at the right hand of God, who indeed is interceding for us.
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword?
As it is written, "For your sake we are being killed all the day long; we are regarded as sheep to be slaughtered."
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.
For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers,
nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.